My name is Crystal. I married my best friend Derick over 6 years ago. Derick and I have been together over 14 years. We have two beautiful boys. Landon Kade 4 yrs old, Maddox Reece, who just turned 2, and an Angel in heaven. I love God and thank him for what He has given me in life. I attend New Life Fellowship Church. I believe in the power of Prayer and Miracles!!!
I love Christmas!!! It is my favorite Holiday but this year is going to be sad. We have a really close family and we all live within a few miles of each other. Well, in January my cousin and his family will be moving to Riverton, Wyoming :( He has always been more like my brother than my cousin since I am an only child and we grew up across the street from each other. He was always my hero and I thought he hung the moon (but I know better than that now lol) Well my little boy Landon feels the same way about his son Konnor. Landon thinks Konnor is the greatest thing ever, so I am sad not only for me but for Landon. He will be losing his best friend. Our family has been so upset over this and not looking forward to the day of them leaving. So please remember our family for this is going to be so hard on us and something new that we are not used too. I thought the world ended when Justin went off to college to Troy State University and that was only 4 hours away, and WY is a 2 day drive away :( Then when I went off to college to the University of Alabama, it was so hard and I was only 2 1/2 hours away so as you can tell our family is really close. Our hearts are broken and we are going to miss them so much. Please pray that we can stay strong and that they have a safe trip!!!
Jut and I at my wedding!!!
Konnor and Landon
These pictures say it all!!! They will be missed so much!!!
I saw this poem today and it made me think of everyone that has had to endure the hardest thing in life, and that is losing a child. I pray that God gives each and every one of you the strength to make it through the Holidays. I also pray that if one of my friends may not know Jesus that it would be the best Christmas gift ever for you to get to know Him. He has brought me through so many times when I thought I couldn't take another step. Praying for everyone and hope you guys have a Merry Christmas!!! Love to all of you!!!
I'll never know... Your sweet smile. I'll never know... your touch. I'll never know.. your first word,
your first steps, and your first breath.
But..I already know...
how I love you.
I already know..
you were a fighter.
I already know...
how I miss you.
I already know...
that God had placed you in our path if only for a brief time.
I already know you've touched our lives and brought joy
even if it was only for a day.
My sweet precious one..
I may never call out your name
I may never watch you grow
but I can know that you are safe with your Father in Heaven and that He knows you.
And that is enough for me to know!
There is hope left for us because we will get to see our Heavenly Father and our Angels again!!!
If you haven't seen The Heart of Christmas, it is a really good movie. It is based on a true story about a little boy named Dax that was diagnosed with Leukemia at 13 months. Dax passed away from this horrible disease at 2 1/2 years old. The movie shows love, compassion, and how just being there for someone means more than anything. It shows how families are there for each other because most of them are going through the same thing. It reminds me of the BLM world. They stick by each other and uplift each other just as all of us do. Watching the movie has showed me that sometimes we just need to slow down and cherish the moments that matter most. If you get a chance to watch it, you should but make sure you have tissue. This is such a touching movie. You can follow Dax's mom's blog if you would like to. This is the site: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/daxlocke
This is Sweet Angel Dax Ryan Locke!!!
This is one of the songs from the movie!!!
This is the other one!!!
This is a movie that will change your heart forever!!!
God truly blessed me with an AWESOME little boy. While we were at Wal-Mart today, we ran into Landon's grandma and she gave him a dollar. Like always, he put it in his pocket right away. When we were leaving, I got some change that I had on me and gave it to him to put into the Salvation Army's bucket. As we started to walk away Landon said, " mommy, I want to put my dollar in there." Talk about a blessing and one proud mommy, I was. Tears began to fill my eyes as I watch my three year old son, give all he had unselfishly to someone who needed it more. I know that God allowed me to see this blessing today because it was a way of showing me how we as adults need to be willing to give more unselfishly like he did. God gave His only Son unselfishly to die on the cross for us so that we can be forgiven for our sins. So why don't we start giving all we have to God and helping others who are in need. I cried all the way home and thanked God for all of the blessings in my life. I have a roof over my head, warm place to sleep, food on my table, and shoes on my feet. I also have a great husband that works to support our family and he still has a job and I have two healthy boys. I hope all of you have a Merry Christmas and I hope that you are like me and see that we can always do more :)
5 years ago today, I married my best friend and soul mate. He is not only a great husband and provider but a wonderful father too. It's crazy how time flies. I was rushing at this time 5 years ago because I was running late which is not unusual for me :) It was the best day of my life and I am so thankful to have him and our boys in my life. Happy 5th Anniversary Derick, I love you!!!
Baby Ava was born November 12, 2011. She weighed 3 lbs and 9 ozs and was 15 inches long. God is so good because she was born at 30 1/2 weeks and have been a fighter ever since. She has overcome so many things and is surprising everyone. She only needed a little oxygen because she was doing the rest on her own. If you don't believe that God is still performing miracles, just look at this sweet Angel!!!
My cousin, Beth was put in the hospital today due to premature labor. She is 30 weeks and today also marks the should be birthday of her baby (Emma) that she lost last year. She went into premature labor with Emma at 21 weeks. How weird is it to go into premature labor with both babies on the same day? She needs a lot of prayers. She shouldn't be going through this, she should be at home remembering baby Emma. I know that God is in control and I am praying that he keeps his hands on Beth and baby Ava. Please say a prayer for her and Ava. Pray that Ava's lungs are developed and that she will be okay. This family has been through so much in the last year but we still serve an Awesome God!!!
A sweet friend of mine lost her baby last year in the month of October. Although we can't see Ellie, she keeps showing us signs that lets us know that she is always around. She paints the sky for her Big Brother, Max and I just wanted to share with you a few pictures that she has painted for us. She does such an AMAZING JOB!!! Ellie, you will never be forgotten. Always thinking of you sweet Angel!!!
This is Beautiful!!! All I added was her name and the flowers!!!
Today is Maddie's 1st Birthday.The sad part is she isn't here to celebrate it with us here on Earh but she is having a grand celebration in Heaven. I'm sure if she could talk to us, she would tell us wish you were here because Heaven is so Beautiful!!! Please everyone remember Kellie and James today as I know that their hearts are breaking. Thank you Maddie for changing my life. You are such an inspiration to me as well as your mommy. Thanks for putting her in my life!!! She's the best!!! Although our hearts are broken with Maddie not being here, we will never let her memory fade!!! "An Angel in the book of life wrote down Maddie's birth, and whispered as she closed the book, "Too Beautiful For Earth". Maddie's life and love is so beautiful!!! Happy Birthday sweet Angel!!!
OK, so I have been following Baby Lisa's story from the beginning. My heart is broken. At first it was broken for the family but now as everything comes out, its broken for Baby Lisa, for me, for all my BLM friends. We all ache for our babies as others are trying to do away with theirs. I am not accusing the parents of doing something to her but I do believe that they know more than what they are telling. I pray that she is okay, I pray that if they did do something to her, that it is just hiding her for publicity like the family with the homemade balloon. I am trying to put all the pieces together, why harm a sweet innocent baby when so amny others would die to have her but not only that, what about the other two kids that are still there? It doesn't make sense if the parents did have something to do with it because they didn't harm the older kids. So this is still so weird to me, all I pray for is that Baby Lisa is unharmed!!! And I pray that if someone did harm her, that justice will be served!!!
You can go to fox news to learn more about the story!!!
Today is Macie's Birthday. Although she is not here with us on Earth, she is still having the best celebration ever. Jesus is giving her a party. Macie please send some hugs and kisses down to your mommy and daddy because they are missing you so much. Thank you sweet Angel for changing my life forever. Please say a prayer for Lisa and Chris Barton today for I know that this is a rough day for them. We all say its not fair that God took her too soon but we have no idea what His plans are. To us its not fair but to Him, He knows why. Happy 1st Birthday Macie Elizabeth!!!
"If Heaven wasn't so far away"
To follow Macie's mom's blog go to: angelbabymacie.blogspot.com
God can change your life in a matter of just seconds. My husband (Derick) and I found this our two years ago this month (October). It was like any other day, we both went to work and came home and I was fixing supper. My little boy, Landon was playing and then decided to take a nap with my husband. When they woke up, Landon was crying and Derick brought him in the room where I was and said you are going to have to do something with him, he won't stop crying. When I took him, he was burning up. I took his temp and it was 103.3 so I immediately gave him some Motrin. Derick took him back in the living room and about ten minutes later started screaming at me to get in there. When I got to them, Landon had gone limp and his eyes were rolled back in his head. He was having a febrile seizure. We ran out the door and headed straight to the hospital. On the way to the hospital, Landon stopped breathing on us and was turning blue/purple around his mouth. I immediately started doing CPR on him and started praying to God to save my baby. God heard my prayer and my baby started breathing again. As I look back on that day now, I realize how blessed I am to have Landon with me today. God could have called him home that night but He gave me my baby back. I am so thankful for God answering my prayers and letting me keep my baby. I would never want to relive that day again in my life. God is an awesome God!!! I believe God showed me this tonight to let me know that He can change our life in a second to get our attention. He showed me that He is in control of my life and that I am not the one who controls what happens. I pray that all of my BLM friends have peace and strength to make it through this hard month of October. They are all facing a new milestone and I know that God is their comforter during this hard time of their lives.
OK, so this is what has been on my mind. This is my blog and each and everyone of us have our own blog. This is where all of us can express how we feel because it belongs to us and no one else. I have had a lot of friends get negative comments on their blogs lately. You know what? THAT IS THEIR SPACE!!! This is how we vent and how we show just how we feel. IF YOU DON"T LIKE IT, THEN LEAVE. You don't have to read it. Some of us are hurting and some of us are still trying to cope with losing our child, so please if you can't say a kind word then don't say anything at all. What really gets on my nerves is that you have to do it as an anonymous person because you don't have the guts to post it under your name where people can see who you are. I read a post of a dear BLM friend last night and she apologized because of other people's ignorance. I told her that she was better than I am because there is no way I would apologize. Its her page and she can write whatever she wants. So with this said, please try to respect other people and their feelings. I may read a blog that I don't agree with but you know what, that's my opinion and I keep it to myself because that wasn't my blog. If I want to write something, I will do it on here. Thank you and have a blessed day!!!! Kellie, I love how you are standing up for Maddie and trying to find reasons why SIDS happen. Love you girl!!!!
I'm leaving you with this: Opinions are like butt holes, we all have one!!!
Some dear friends of mine from church buried their precious baby girls today, Payslee Grace and Paylon Claire. She was 20 weeks pregnant with them and it was the sweetest service but yet so sad. I knew that God put me in their lives for a reason but didn't know this would be it. It has been really rough on her and the rest of the family. Brandon, the father, lost his dad last year in September. Bro. David found out he had cancer and 2 weeks later passed away. ( But not only do they have Jesus as a baby-sitter, they have their pawpaw) So this family has really been through it but yet they haven't lost their Praise!!! Then today during the funeral, Sierra's, the mommy, uncle passed out. They are thinking he had a heart attack. So please if you are a prayer warrior, please lift this family up because they really need it. One thing that really stuck out to me today was what one of the preacher's said. Bro Ray has also lost a child, so he knows from experience what they are going through. He said people may be trying to comfort them when they say: you are young, you can have another one. He said yes that's true but another baby will never replace them. Each child is its own being. They have their own place in your heart and can never be replaced. I love that!!! Please remember my friends and their family. I know that they will be Victorious because they have Jesus on their side!!!
This song is so sweet and really touched me!!! I know that God is the best babysitter for my Angel!!!
My heart is breaking for all my BLMs. A few of them are coming up on the 1st birthdays of their Angels and other are coming up on different milestones. My heart breaks for them because I know that it is so hard to go a day without their children muchless 2 months, 10 months, 1 year. I just want all of you to know that I am praying for you!!! I'm here to try and uplift you and pick you up when you fall. I saw this quote the other day and it made me think about all of you....
“To be fully human is…to know that it’s possible to face the unimaginable and somehow put one foot in front of the other.” - Oprah
That is so true, because they still have to live from day to day. They can't just shut down their lives because some have other children and if not they have a husband and family that they still have to be there for. I am praying for peace, strength, comfort, and understanding for all. Love you guys!!!
I would like to leave you with this......
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." Dr. Seuss
With that being said I know its hard to not be sad but to know that they lived and touched so many lives is worth it all. God will never leave you nor forsake you!!! He is the dearest friend that we can ever have :)
This past weekend was really busy for us. Maddox turned 1 Saturday. It was a bittersweet day. I was excited because of his party but sad because he isn't a baby anymore:( Where has time gone? If you blink your eyes, it seems like you have missed half of their life. His Birthday Party was great, other than the nasty weather that Tropical Storm Lee brought with it. We had so many friends and family that came to help us celebrate. Thank God, I always do their parties in the Church Gym because no matter what, rain or shine, you have a great party:) The rest of our weekend was spent sitting in the house watching it rain so not too good of a Labor Day weekend. Then yesterday we welcomed our newest addition to my side of the family. Easton Brent arrived late last night, weighing 9 lbs and 22 inches long. Yes, he is such a chunky baby :) So much to love!!!! So although we had nasty weather, we didn't let it take all the joy away. Thank God for all of his Blessings on my family. Hope all of you had a great weekend, yourselves:) Below are pictures of Maddox's party and Baby Easton:)
Sept. 3, 2010
Maddox 1 Day Old!!!
4 Months Old
6 Months Old
10 Months Old
Happy Birthday Maddox Reece!!!
Welcome Easton Brent!!!
Landon wasn't ready for the picture LOL!!!
Sorry about the pictures that are not facing the right way. I couldn't figure out how to turn them LOL!!!
I have so much that I need to update on here. With the Tropical Storm and all the stufff that has been going on I havn't had time to get on here and blog about what's been going on lately. And today I still don't have time because I am heading out the door to see our newest addition to our family be born. I just had to get on here and share this quote and I will blog about the weekend when I get home. “To be fully human is…to know that it’s possible to face the unimaginable and somehow put one foot in front of the other.” - Oprah Hope all of you have a blessed day and thinking about all my BLM friends :)
Today is Kellie's birthday and she is a dear friend to me. She and I got to know each other when she lost her sweet Angel, Maddie too soon. I know that if Kellie could have one wish to come true, that it would be for Maddie to come back but since that can't happen, She is trying her harrdest to keep Maddie's memory alive. She and James have worked so hard on raising money to for SIDS, and just sharing their love that they have for Maddie. My heart breaks for them and I too wish that Maddie could come back so that their hearts could be in one piece again. I know that she is in a better place and cannot come back so I am going to try to help Kellie and James in keeping Maddie's memory alive and sharing her love with others. Maddie was truly an Angel to me and Kellie has been my inspiration. Seeing the love that she has for Maddie has really touched me. I hope that one day that God blesses them with another little bundle of joy because they are two of the greatest parents around. They deserve to be Happy again. So Maddie, I am asking you to send your mommy and daddy a baby brother or sister. You will always be in our Heart sweet Maddie!!! Happy Birthday Kellie!!! You are the BEST!!!
We go through life so often Not stopping to enjoy the day, And we take each one for granted As we travel on our way.
We never stop to measure Anything we just might miss, But if the wind should blow by softly You'll feel an angel's kiss. A kiss that is sent from Heaven A kiss from up above, A kiss that is very special From someone that you love.
For in your pain and sorrow An angel's kiss will help you through, This kiss is very private For it is meant for only you.
So when your hearts are heavy And filled with tears and pain, And no one can console you Remember once again..... About the ones you grieve for Because you sadly miss And the gentle breeze you took for granted Was just......... "an angel's kiss." ~Unknown
We do need to slow down and realize when God is showing us that He cares. When we least expect it, He could be allowing us to feel the presence of our precious Angels!!!
I know that right now some of us are going through our deepest, darkest valley. Then I am reminded of a song called In The Valley, There's A Rock . The words go In the valley there's a rock, Hold your head up high, you don't have to cry, because Jesus is your rock!!! That is so true, when we are at our lowest, we still have a rock so we don't have to hit bottom. As long as we have Jesus with us, we will never hit the bottom because He is our ROCK!!!! Just thanking God for all that He has done in my life. I know that things have happened and I wanted to question Him why but He knows the why. He is the One who has the plan for my life. He had it planned out before I was ever born. I just have to remind myself of this over and over. Praying for all of my BLM's and I know that with the help of God, we can make it one more day.
Kim was not only a wonderful wife and mom she was a great friend. She is married to Steven and they have two beautiful little girls Faith (9 yrs old) and Charity (4 yrs old). Kim has been fighting cancer since November and she has had her good days and bad days. But today as we have all been praying for her healing, she finally received it. She didn't receive it here on Earth but she got her healing in Heaven. We are going to miss her so much but I know that God needed her more. Not only was she an Angel on Earth but now she is one in Heaven. She is in a better place and I am jealous of her because she got to see Jesus first. No, I don't want to leave my children here behind but if I could pack them up to go with me, I would love for us to be in Heaven right now. This world is too wicked. Kim I am going to miss you so much!!! I know that your babies are going to have a hard time without their mommy but we will do everything we can to take care of them and show them the love that you had for them. Love you!!!!
We have been on our family vacation for week. It was so nice to just get away from all the worries and have no care in the world lol. We went to Gulf Shores and the boys had a great time. I wish it would have lasted longer. While we were there, Landon and I wrote names in the sand of some pretty Awesome Angels who have gone to Heaven way too soon. We also went floundering and fishing. We caught a shark :| It was pretty cool to get to see one up close and not worry about him biting me lol. Really missed being able to read all of my BLM's blogs. I felt like I was missing out on so much while we were gone and I couldn't see how you all were doing. I hope you guys have had a great Summer!!! Here are a few pictures from our trip:)
Today Landon went for his first dentist appointment. I had an appointment so I made him one too. He amazed me because he acted like a pro lol. Everyone was bragging on how well he did. When we got there. They stopped me in the hall to do my xray on their new high tech xray machine lol. While I was there, the lady came and got Landon and took him to another room. I looked in the room and he had climbed up in the chair like a big boy and was sitting there talking to Megan (the hygienist) and he thought he was something lol. She told me he did better than the older kids do. Anyway I was one proud mommy and had to get a picture because he was so sweet. Oh and believe me he got tons of goodies from Megan and Dr. Jeana. After his appointment, he did get to go to Wal-Mart and get a toy from mommy and daddy for being so good.
Mommy's Big Boy!!! Thanking God For His Blessings On My Family!!!
I am so shocked, well not shocked because its just the Bible being fulfilled. Our world is becoming so sick. It is okay to kill your child and get away with it? I don't think so. I am not judging her, but if she didn't kill Caylee, she know who did and was part of it. Its sad that someone can accidently kill someone in a car accident and get more years in the pin than someone killing their own child on purpose. Or like a friend of mine (who is a police officer) said a man gets sent to the pin for 20 years for looking at porn yet you kill your child and give false statements and get away with it with maybe 1 year. I am so disappointed in our system because they are showing that life doesn't really matter anymore. You can kill and get away with it or you can abort a child and its okay. I would have loved to have had Caylee to raise. If there are parents out there who don't want their kids, I will gladly take them. I have so many friends that want babies so bad and who have lost their little angels and are hurting and then people like this Casey who do away with their children and have no remorse about it. God bless that baby and may she be forever HAPPY in HEAVEN!!! God forgive us for we are failing you.
Three years ago, God blessed me with a beautiful little boy, Landon Kade. If I could go back in time and live those years over again, I would. I wouldn't trade any of the memories for anything in this world. He is my little man and his daddy's little buddy. I am so thankful for God giving him to me and giving me three years with him and I hope that I have many more years with him :) Mommy loves you Landon Kade. Here are a few pictures of my baby boy!!!
I just want to say that I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father, Earthly Father, and Husband.
First of all my Heavenly Father, without Him, I wouldn't be here today. He loved me enough to let His Son die on the cross for me so that I could be forgiven and have everlasting life. Also I am thankful that He loves me enough to give me another day to wake up with my little family, for being my strong tower when I was going through the hardest times of my life, and for just loving me for I am so unworthy.
Second my dad, I want to thank him for always being there for me. He has been there for me during heartbreaks, break-ups, my miscarriage. He has always tried to give me anything that I wanted and I am thankful for that. My husband isn't lol because he says that I am spoiled. To my daddy, I love you!!!
My daddy and I on my wedding day :)
Last my husband, he is the best daddy ever. I couldn't have chosen a better daddy for my boys. He loves them and he loves me. He tries to give us the best life that he can. Yes, he does spoil us. He allows me to be a stay at home mom with our kids and I am so thankful for that. He is my rock and best friend. I love him so much!!!
My husband and the boys, the day Maddox was born :) Landon was so excited to be a big brother.
Now to the rest of the Fathers. I hope you guys had a great Father's Day. No matter if you are a father to an Angel in Heaven or an Angel who walks on Earth, you are still a daddy and so loved :)
Have you ever had one of those days where nothing went right and all you wanted to do was cry? All you could think about was sad things? Loved ones that you have lost? Well that is what I am having today. Going down memory lane makes me so sad. I just wished that I could have just one more day with everyone that I have lost in my life. Then I get to looking at my friends and thier stories and I cry with them because my heart breaks for them too. It hurts to think about the what ifs. What if they were here, what would they be doing. Well the thing that makes me happy is knowing that one day soon, I will get to see the what ifs when I get to Heaven. All I have to do is keep my mind on the goal and that is to make it to Heaven. Then Heaven will be my reward!!! To get to Heaven I have to make sure that I believe in Christ, ask Him to forgive me for my sins, live for Him, and share His love with others. They have to see a difference in me and that is what I am trying to do is show them that I am different now and that I lived each day to be more like Christ. Through all my hurt and pain, God has never left my side and I am so thankful for that. I have seen Him perform miracles and answer prayers and I am so thankful for that. I hope that everyone has a Blessed day!!! I know that I am going to try to make the best of whats left in this day!!! Pray for me and I will be praying for you :) <3 Love to all my BLMs <3
Do you remember hearing the saying "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all"? Well that is so true. Being nice to others is something that can make a life changing difference in that person's life. Even when people aren't as nice to you, do what the Bible says and turn the other cheek. You don't know what that person may have been through that day. They could have lost a job, lost a loved one, tried to kill themselves, depressed, got a divorce, had a break-up, etc. I could go on and on. So next time you see someone that looks down or that is having a bad day. Give them a word of encouragement, you never know if what you said to them may have changed their lives. You may have helped them through their depression and bad thoughts about their lives so please encourage everyone you see. I know there have been times when I thought that no one else cared but you know what, I was wrong because God Cares!!! When it seems that you have no one else, you have God. God is our Strength and Strong Tower and He will never leave us nor forsake us. Share His love with others so that they can experience how Great our God is!!!! Life is too short to live depressed, down and out. Cheer up because God loves you. When you hurt, He hurts. As the Bible says, I've never seen the righteous forsaken!!! I found a poem that I wanted to share. The thing that makes me the happiest is knowing that as long as I live for Christ and have that personal relationship with him, that one day, I will get to meet my sweet Angel again!!! God promised that He has a place prepared for me. Oh how excited I am to see that day!!! I know that living for God has been the best thing in my life. I will soon get to see all my loved ones who have gone on before me. We are all children of God but it takes more that just being His child to get to Heaven. You have to have a personal relationship with Him!!! We have to accept Him as our personal Savior and lay off the old coat and put on the new. Meaning do away with all the things of our past that made us sin and start living for Him. Praying for all of my Blog Friends!!! I know people may write mean things on your blogs but don't worry about them. God will take care of them. You reap what you sow!!!
There is a special Angel in Heaven
That is a part of me
It is not where I wanted her
But where God wanted her to be
She was here just a moment
Like a night time shooting star
And though she is in Heaven
She isn't very far
She touched the hearts of many
Like only an Angel can do
I would have held her every moment
If the end I only knew
So I send this special message
To heaven up above
Please God take care of my Angel
and send her all my love
We don't understand why God does the things He does but He knows the plans for our lives. I am just trusting and believing in His plan although its not the plan that you or I would have wanted for our lives. He is still an on time God!!!
I must admit I don't understand
Why God would let me face this painful circumstance.
All I have to cling to is His Word and His Name
But that's enough so I will trust
...It's For My Good and for His Glory
This trial's not the end of the story
There's a bigger picture
God alone can see.
Faith will take me through this sorrow
For I know He holds tomorrow
And He assures me it's for my good
And for His glory.
I love the Lord and He has promised me
To work all things for good; through my tears I believe
That His ways are higher than any of my own
And though my heart aches He makes no mistakes.
Though I would not have chosen the suffering that has come
I'm willing now to say, "Lord, not my will but thine be done."
Have you ever wondered how you have made it as far as you have? I am here to tell you that it is only by the Grace of God. I know when I wanted to give up, He was there to carry me, lift me, hold me, hug me, and MOST OF ALL LOVE ME!!!! Even when I wasn't worthy of His love, He still loved me. Losing a child is one of the hardest things a parent will ever have to go through. People sometimes ask how do you make it? Like my title says GOD'S GRACE!!! It takes Him to make you stronger and while you walk, He is holding your hand, telling you I am here for you!!! I am praying for all BLMs. Hope you guys have a BLESSED week!!!
I found this poem today and wanted to share it with all of the BLMs. I know how hard it is going to be without your Angels but I know that our Angels are in Heaven looking down on us!!! They are with us every step we take. Hope you guys have the best Mother's Day that you can possibly have during this hard time in your life!!! Love you all!!!
A Mother’s Day Wish From Heaven
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she’s cried.
I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
that though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
~ by Jody Seilheimer ~
Well the past two weeks have been horrible for Alabama. It started off with the tornadoes hitting right here in my home town and killing people and then this week, they hit my second home, TUSCALOOSA!!! My husband and I lived in Tuscaloosa while we went to college and then a little while after we got married. Well, its completely destroyed now. Yes, I do thank God for protecting my family that still lives there, but its so sad for others who lost their families, homes, jobs, etc. Its horrible and you can't even tell what the pictures are of now because everything is destroyed and in pieces. Please say a prayer for my second home and I can't leave you without saying ROLL TIDE!!!
Then tomorrow is Spring For SIDS!!! I am praying for all the moms who have lost their Angels to this horrible disease. (That's what I am calling it, because it is something that takes the life of the precious ones we love) It is a happy day because, we are raising money and awareness for SIDS but sad because its a reminder of all the little Angels that have gone to be with Jesus, leaving their moms and dads broken hearted and with empty arms. Praying for all my BLMs tomorrow!!! I pray that they can find a cure because SIDS is starting to take the life of more babies and is becoming more common each day. We have to find a cure!!!
I love all of my BLMs and I am praying for you :)
United We Stand!!!
Taken at University Mall!!!
This is an Aerial View of 15th, McFarland, and a few other places!!!
As I was sitting here tonight reading all of my friends' blogs, I began to think about how love hurts. "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." I sometimes wonder is this quote true. It seems like if you didn't love, then your heart would never get broken. Examples of love ending in broken hearts: When we broke up with our first love or crush, it hurt and our hearts were broken but over time they did heal. Then losing your child, family, or friend, broke your heart again and knowing that you loved these so much, it was so hard to let them go and say goodbye. Can your heart ever heal from the loss? I don't think so. I believe that it will try to piece itself back together but there will always be pieces missing. So as you can tell, love hurts and breaks hearts!!! If it wasn't for God, we wouldn't be able to make it but I am thankful that He loves us!!!
Lastly, the love of God. He loved us enough that He let his Son die on the cross for us so that we could have everlasting life. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."...JOHN 3:16 That was true love that God showed for us as Jesus hung on that cross. Then as Jesus hung on the cross, He said Father forgive them, for they know not what they do. This is another example of how love breaks hearts. Mary's heart was broken into pieces as she lost her Son. So love does hurt in many ways. I am so thankful for the love that God had for me, that He would give up his child's life just for a sinner like me.
So as I was saying, love hurts but with God we are able to make it. Praise be to God!!!
I just wanted to wish all of my friends a Happy Easter. I know for some this will be the best Easter ever and for others, this will be one of the hardest Easters that you will ever face. There are days when I too want to give up but knowing what my reward will be when I finish this race of life makes it all worth it. Knowing that I will get to see my loved ones that have gone on before me, knowing that I can just see Jesus so I can thank Him face to face for loving me enough to die on the cross so that I could be forgiven. To know that God gave his own Son so that we could have eternal life. God also knows the pain of losing a child like we ,BLM, do.
As we were practicing our Easter Drama last night for the final time, I was sitting there watching Jesus hang on the cross as Mary was sitting there crying and having to watch her child die. That is how some of us are, as we sat there and had to watch and go through the pain of losing our own children. See we are not the only ones who have suffered the lose of our Precious Child, even our SAVIOR'S parents had to go through the pain of losing their child too.
I know that its hard but I know that with the help of God, family, friends, and other BLM, we will make it. We need to stick together and help each other and be there to pick each other up when the other falls. Some of us are still trying to put all the pieces of our heart back together and then there are some of us who have the pieces back together but now we are waiting for the healing to begin. I know that my strength comes from the Lord and that is the main reason I am able to make it from day to day. Withour Him, I don't know where I would be today.
To all of my BLM, lets help each other for it won't be long before we will get to see our Angels again. Let encourage each other to not give up and to keep our Faith in Christ for He is the only way to the Fater and to Heaven!!! Love you Guys and praying for you!!! Happy Easter!!!