Landon's First Day and Week of Pre-K!!!

  Landon started Pre-K this year. He did good his first day. He went in and didn't cry. Wish I could say that about the rest of the week. He held on to me screaming his second and it broke my heart to leave him like that but I had to get to work. The next day was the same way. After lots of prayers, today was great. He was so excited to see his buddies and we had no tears. Thanking God for answering my prayers. This mommy couldn't have taken much more because he was breaking my heart!!!

Landon's 4th Birthday And Maddox's 2nd Birthday!!!

 I am such a bad mommy, Landon turned 4 at the end of June and I am just not sharing his Birthday photos. Anyway I just wanted to let you guys see pictures from both of the boys' parties. They both really enjoyed them :) We had Power Rangers for Landon and "OH Two-dles" Mickey and Minnie for Maddox and his friend Ingrid. Maddox will not be two until Sept.3 but that is Labor Day and so many have plans including us so we celebrated a little early. I am so sad that my babies are growing up. I wish time would slow down just a little.Hope you enjoy.

Our Trip To Wyoming!!!

Hope you enjoy the pictures!!!

L-R my mom Hope, Me, Maddox, (cousin)Alli Jewel, Landon, (cousin)Konnor, My grandmother Frances, my cousin Justin and his wife Krisden and my grandfather LD

Beartooth Pass- The Kids With Grandpa

Cody, WY

Sinks Canyon

Beartooth Pass -Montana... Still had snow in the mountains

Yellowstone 

Grand Tetons

We flew out to see our family in Wyoming at the first of this month. We had a really great time. Just went by way too fast. (They have been gone for 7 months and its like a whole in your heart) It was nice just getting to visit with family and getting to see so many new places. I know my boys are young but I hope that they can remember something about our trip. I know that I can still remember when we went out West when I was a child. It was 18 years ago and it was the last trip that our whole family went on before we lost both of my great-grandmothers. What great Memories!!! Above are a few pictures from our trip. I hope you enjoy. The picture don't do some of the places we visited justice. It was so BEAUTIFUL!!!

Our God Is Faithful!!!

There have been times in life where I was down and out and just didn't know what to do. I knew I wasn't giving up on God but I just needed that uplifting. Well lately has been one of those times. I was just down and it seem like everything was not going the way it was suppose to. I would pray for God to give me peace about situations that were going on such as my dad remarrying and I know that God is in control and that He will show up right on time. I am still praying for that peace but God has showed up like always and has been faithful to me. He has been there for me through the good and the bad. I've never really looked at trial this way until Bro. Kyle at church said something about it. He said if a runner enters a race, he has to train to get stronger so he can make it to the finish line and that it how it is with trials we face. When we are climbing that mountain to get to the top, we are only getting stronger so the trails of life only make us stronger :) So wonderful when you think of it that way. I am almost back to my mountain top and so excited to see what God has planned for me. On a brighter side, we have been having a wonderful summer and enjoying the beach :) Will post pictures later!!!

~Summer Time~

Summer time is the best part of the year for us. I am so excited about our summer this year. We have so much planned :) We love to travel and just enjoy time with our boys. We just got back from Atlanta, GA where we went to Six Flags and Stone Mountain. We had a wonderful time. This week we are heading to the beach and will spend the month of June and July there (off and on) Then we have both boys birthdays during the summer plus we are flying to Wyoming to see our family that recently moved there. Lastly, the best part of all :DISNEY!!!! Yea, we are going to Disney World in September and we are so excited. Landon talks about it all the time so I can not wait to see his face when we get there. Anyway as you can tell we have a busy summer and we are ready for it!!!

Baby Levi

I am asking all of my friends to pray for Baby Levi. He is in the PICU and is needing all the prayers he can get. His mom posted that he is stable but to please keep the prayers coming. I know that if this was my child, I would want everyone praying so please join with me in prayer for baby Levi. This family has already been through so much so please pray for strength for them too!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!!

  Just want to wish all of my friends a very Happy Mother's Day. I hope you guys have a great day. Being a mom is more than just giving birth to a child. You have so many responsibilities and you put them before yourself and would do anything in the world for thing. That is what a real mother's love will do for a child. I love my boys more than anything in this world and I thank them for making me a very happy mommy :) Happy Mother's Day!!!

 I love these two more than anything in this world :)

International Bereaved Mothers Day

  This Sunday is International Bereaved Mother's Day. This holiday was started in 2010 by a group of moms who have lost their angels too soon. It falls on the first Sunday of every May. This is a day that none of us should have to celebrate but God's plans saw it otherwise. I want to tell everyone of my BLM's that I am thinking about them and I am sending all my love to them. We will never understand why we have to go through this until we get to Heaven and then look down and see how God put all the tiny pieces in our life together and then it will all make perfect sense. Praying for peace and comfort to all of you. <3 Sending love your way <3

Brennan

This is for all you prayer warriors out there. Please continue to pray for Brennan. He is at home on hospice and they are giving him adult doses of medicines to help with the pain. Pray for healing for this baby. I know that if he was my child, I would want everyone that believes in God and miracles to be praying for him. Please take time out of your day, even if it is a minute to say a prayer for him. Also pray for peace and strength for his family. Thanks!!!

So Heartbroken!!!

Today I found out that one of the little girls that I have been praying for, went to be with Jesus. Baby Quinn who fought the horrible disease of "EB" for 8 months passed away Saturday. Then today a little boy named Brennan, who I have been following for some time now got bad news. He has been fighting cancer and today they said no more chemo for him because one of the lesions on his brain is bleeding. This just breaks my heart to see these babies suffering and then losing their battle. I have spent so many nights praying for them and it just hurts so bad to see that their healing is in Heaven and not on Earth. Please say a prayer for Quinn's family and a prayer for Brennan as he fights cancer.

YEA!!!

Let the countdown begin. In 5 days my babies (who moved to Wyoming) are coming home to visit. We are so happy to see them especially Landon. He has missed Konnor and Alli Jewel so much. Although I am happy and excited, I am sad too because I know that we will have to tell them goodbye all over again. It was just getting to where I could talk to them without breaking down. My heart still ached but I was able to talk. Anyway so much fun and so many things to cram into one week :) Spring Break will be AWESOME!!!

Busy and 18 Month Shots

Well Life has been so busy lately. I don't have enough time in the day to do everything that I would like to do. It seems like when the weekend rolls around and I have some help from the hubby, the days really speed up lol. My husband and I both have birthdays in February and Valentine's Day falls in between them so we did get to get away for a few days, just the two of us and relax. I think I need it again lol. My husband also turned the BIG 30 this year so we had a big surprise party for him. It was so nice to have friends and family together.  Maddox had his 18 month appointment and he weighs 25 lbs and is 35 inches long. My baby is growing up on me. I miss him being little. He got his shot yesterday and didn't even cry so he is one tough little boy. Landon is going to turn 4 this year and I am getting sad because I will only have one more year of him being at home with me. If I could, I would freeze time because they are at the perfect age. Miss having babies :( I hope you guys have had a great week so far and have a wonderful weekend. I will share just a few pictures with you of how fast my boys are growing up!!! 

Baby Maddie

Today is the one year angelversary of Miss Madison Paige Staats. She is another angel who gained her wings too soon. Maddie, you will always have a special place in my heart. Please remember Kellie and James because losing a child is the hardest thing in life. Praying for your mommy and daddy today sweet Maddie. Dance with the Angels!!!

<3 Madison Paige <3

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Just want to wish everyone of my blog friends a Happy Valentine's Day!!! I hope all of you get something really nice from the love of your life. Always remember that the greatest gift of all is the Love of Christ that we receive every single day!!!

Loving All Angels!!!

Breaking Hearts!!!

My heart is breaking for all the families who have lost their little ones to cancer. So many of them fought long and hard. As I was looking at my facebook page today I read where 3 babies lost their battle today and 2 others were sent home with hospice because they said that there was nothing else they could do. Please pray for these families with me. I know that it's not over until God says so. A doctor can say whatever they want but we serve a Great Physician and He has the final say. My heart is so heavy tonight :(

Update On Starla!!!

For those who don't believe that God still performs miracles and heals, just read this post. Thank you Jesus!!! When I read this today, I got chills and began to cry because I know our God is good and this reassures me that He hears our prayers!!! ~~Just Trust~~
This week in itself has yet again been trying for our family. While Starla was still sedated 3 weeks ago we were told that a CT scan showed abcess on her abdomen/pelvic area, and that they would monitor it in the upcoming weeks. Monday a repeat CT was done and raised concerns from her doctor. He stated that the mass forming seemed to mimick that of chloroma. A chloroma usually presents before AML is presented in the bone marrow...in our case, it would mean a relapse. My heart sank to the floor as the doctor proceeded to tell us that he wanted to have it biopsied immediately so that pathology could examine it further, He also explained that if it was indeed chloroma Starla would be given intense chemo to push her back into remission and then taken for a bone marrow transplant. I was confused...God had given Starla back to us...she wasnt even finished with her other rounds of treatment, NOW this!!!
Starla was biopsied yesterday. She cried and cried as she got ready for the procedure, and although I was trusting, as a mother I was afraid for my child who had already overcome all odds. We were told that we would get results in 3 days...
This morning the doctor made his rounds...and within a few hours he returned...my stomach had hit the floor as he had a confused look on his face..."I thought I should tell you this today Mr and Mrs Chapman...the biopsy is CLEAN...."
He walked out of the room and we immediately began to praise God and thank Him for yet another miracle.
Today marked one month since Starla went into cardiac arrest. She was taken off of her final support med, took a trip to the park at the hospital, the cardiologist said that her heart function looks great and if all goes well we will be moved to the floor PENTHOUSE on Monday.
We hold Starla tighter everyday and never fail to thank God for our miracle. And we thank each of you for the outpouring of Love and support. One thing is certain the good outweighs the bad! Just Trust....God is with us ♥

*Proverbs 3:5*

Macie's 1 Year Angelversary!!!

Today makes one year since Macie received her Angel wings too soon. My heart is breaking for her mommy, Lisa and daddy, Chris. No parent should have to go through this. We are supposed to go before our children but God hand picks His Angels and He only takes the best. Macie has touched my heart and I am so thankful that she has brought her mommy and I so close. Please remember Lisa and Chris today as this is a hard day for them. Baby Macie, send lots of love, hugs, and kisses to everyone for they really need to feel you near today. Love ya Sweet Girl!!!    

Macie Elizabeth Barton

October 6, 2010- January 25, 2011

An angel in the book of life wrote down baby Macie's birth,. Then whispered as she closed the book

TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH!!!!

Elmo Is The Best!!!

Did any of you hear the song that was released by Sesame Street released I think they said 6 days before Tripp went to be with Jesus? It is an awesome song and if any of you have read Courtney's blog then you know that children with EB are referred to butterflies because they are so fragile just like a butterfly's wing. Well Elmo sings about his little butterfly friend and it tells him that he is free and can fly. It is awesome and Kevin Clash (Elmo) was inspired by Tripp's story and wrote a few songs for him. I want to share Little Butterfly Friend with you because it touched my heart and I know that it will touch yours.

I hope it touches your heart like it did mine!!!

Tripp, Forever In Our Hearts!!!!

It saddens me today as I type this post. I am no sure how many of you follow Courtney and Tripp Roths blog but precious Tripp gain his Angel wings today. My heart breaks for Courtney and her family. I know that Tripp will never have to suffer again but it doesn't make it any easier letting him go. Please if you can take time today and lift this family up. Thank you Tripp for being precious and inspiring. You have changed so many of us forever. Fly high with the Angels today and give my baby a hug and kiss for me.

Tripp's body was as fragile as Butterfly Wings!!!

This is one of my favorite pictures of Tripp. It shows his sweet and funny personality!!!

5/14/2009 -1/14/2012

Just Trust!!!

Just Trust is what little 3 year old Starla told her mom and dad right before her first round of Chemo. Please say a prayer for this sweet girl. I know that God can heal her.

Praying for you Sweet Starla!!! I am believing with you Angel!!!

Our Miracle, Ava Faith!!!

I have had so many ask me about Ava and how she was doing. Ava is doing great. She got to come home from the hospital on Dec. 8th . She wasn't in the NICU as long as expected and she overcame so many things that amazed them. It didn't amaze me because I knew it was all God. So many were praying for her and I saw God touch lives through her and for that I am thankful. Ava is up to 6 lbs now and love to eat lol. I am so proud of my cousin Beth for how she held up. She is so strong and to that I look up to her. Not only did she lose a baby on the same day that she went into premature labor with Ava but she remained strong for Ava and for us. She said she look at it like God knew that it would be so hard to have to go through the 1 year angelversay of Emma so God sent her another blessing. To look at life that was is amazing. I just want to thank everyone for all their prayers and concern. God is so good!!!

Miss Ava Faith!!! 

Our Gift and Miracle From God!!!