Christmas Will Be Bitter Sweet This Year!!!

I love Christmas!!! It is my favorite Holiday but this year is going to be sad. We have a really close family and we all live within a few miles of each other. Well, in January my cousin and his family will be moving to Riverton, Wyoming :( He has always been more like my brother than my cousin since I am an only child and we grew up across the street from each other. He was always my hero and I thought he hung the moon (but I know better than that now lol) Well my little boy Landon feels the same way about his son Konnor. Landon thinks Konnor is the greatest thing ever, so I am sad not only for me but for Landon. He will be losing his best friend. Our family has been so upset over this and not looking forward to the day of them leaving. So please remember our family for this is going to be so hard on us and something new that we are not used too. I thought the world ended when Justin went off to college to Troy State University and that was only 4 hours away, and WY is a 2 day drive away :( Then when I went off to college to the University of Alabama, it was so hard and I was only 2 1/2 hours away so as you can tell our family is really close. Our hearts are broken and we are going to miss them so much. Please pray that we can stay strong and that they have a safe trip!!!

Jut and I at my wedding!!!

Konnor and Landon

These pictures say it all!!! They will be missed so much!!!

I'll Never Know!!!

I saw this poem today and it made me think of everyone that has had to endure the hardest thing in life, and that is losing a child. I pray that God gives each and every one of you the strength to make it through the Holidays. I also pray that if one of my friends may not know Jesus that it would be the best Christmas gift ever for you to get to know Him. He has brought me through so many times when I thought I couldn't take another step. Praying for everyone and hope you guys have a Merry Christmas!!! Love to all of you!!!

I'll never know...
Your sweet smile.
I'll never know...
your touch.
I'll never know..
your first word,
your first steps, and your first breath.

But..I already know...
how I love you.
I already know..
you were a fighter.
I already know...
how I miss you.
I already know...
that God had placed you in our path if only for a brief time.
I already know you've touched our lives and brought joy
even if it was only for a day.

My sweet precious one..
I may never call out your name
I may never watch you grow
but I can know that you are safe with your Father in Heaven and that He knows you.
And that is enough for me to know!


There is hope left for us because we will get to see our Heavenly Father and our Angels again!!!

The Heart Of Christmas!!!

If you haven't seen The Heart of Christmas, it is a really good movie. It is based on a true story about a little boy named Dax that was diagnosed with Leukemia at 13 months. Dax passed away from this horrible disease at 2 1/2 years old. The movie shows love, compassion, and how just being there for someone means more than anything. It shows how families are there for each other because most of them are going through the same thing. It reminds me of the BLM world. They stick by each other and uplift each other just as all of us do. Watching the movie has showed me that sometimes we just need to slow down and cherish the moments that matter most. If you get a chance to watch it, you should but make sure you have tissue. This is such a touching movie. You can follow Dax's mom's blog if you would like to. This is the site: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/daxlocke

This is Sweet Angel Dax Ryan Locke!!!

This is one of the songs from the movie!!!

This is the other one!!!

This is a movie that will change your heart forever!!!

Blessed

God truly blessed me with an AWESOME little boy. While we were at Wal-Mart today, we ran into Landon's grandma and she gave him a dollar. Like always, he put it in his pocket right away. When we were leaving, I got some change that I had on me and gave it to him to put into the Salvation Army's bucket. As we started to walk away Landon said, " mommy, I want to put my dollar in there." Talk about a blessing and one proud mommy, I was. Tears began to fill my eyes as I watch my three year old son, give all he had unselfishly to someone who needed it more. I know that God allowed me to see this blessing today because it was a way of showing me how we as adults need to be willing to give more unselfishly like he did. God gave His only Son unselfishly to die on the cross for us so that we can be forgiven for our sins. So why don't we start giving all we have to God and helping others who are in need. I cried all the way home and thanked God for all of the blessings in my life. I have a roof over my head, warm place to sleep, food on my table, and shoes on my feet. I also have a great husband that works to support our family and he still has a job and I have two healthy boys. I hope all of you have a Merry Christmas and I hope that you are like me and see that we can always do more :)

I think this is my favorite Christmas song now!!!

Anniversary!!!

5 years ago today, I married my best friend and soul mate. He is not only a great husband and provider but a wonderful father too. It's crazy how time flies. I was rushing at this time 5 years ago because I was running late which is not unusual for me :) It was the best day of my life and I am so thankful to have him and our boys in my life. Happy 5th Anniversary Derick, I love you!!!