My name is Crystal. I married my best friend Derick over 6 years ago. Derick and I have been together over 14 years. We have two beautiful boys. Landon Kade 4 yrs old, Maddox Reece, who just turned 2, and an Angel in heaven. I love God and thank him for what He has given me in life. I attend New Life Fellowship Church. I believe in the power of Prayer and Miracles!!!
God can change your life in a matter of just seconds. My husband (Derick) and I found this our two years ago this month (October). It was like any other day, we both went to work and came home and I was fixing supper. My little boy, Landon was playing and then decided to take a nap with my husband. When they woke up, Landon was crying and Derick brought him in the room where I was and said you are going to have to do something with him, he won't stop crying. When I took him, he was burning up. I took his temp and it was 103.3 so I immediately gave him some Motrin. Derick took him back in the living room and about ten minutes later started screaming at me to get in there. When I got to them, Landon had gone limp and his eyes were rolled back in his head. He was having a febrile seizure. We ran out the door and headed straight to the hospital. On the way to the hospital, Landon stopped breathing on us and was turning blue/purple around his mouth. I immediately started doing CPR on him and started praying to God to save my baby. God heard my prayer and my baby started breathing again. As I look back on that day now, I realize how blessed I am to have Landon with me today. God could have called him home that night but He gave me my baby back. I am so thankful for God answering my prayers and letting me keep my baby. I would never want to relive that day again in my life. God is an awesome God!!! I believe God showed me this tonight to let me know that He can change our life in a second to get our attention. He showed me that He is in control of my life and that I am not the one who controls what happens. I pray that all of my BLM friends have peace and strength to make it through this hard month of October. They are all facing a new milestone and I know that God is their comforter during this hard time of their lives.
OK, so this is what has been on my mind. This is my blog and each and everyone of us have our own blog. This is where all of us can express how we feel because it belongs to us and no one else. I have had a lot of friends get negative comments on their blogs lately. You know what? THAT IS THEIR SPACE!!! This is how we vent and how we show just how we feel. IF YOU DON"T LIKE IT, THEN LEAVE. You don't have to read it. Some of us are hurting and some of us are still trying to cope with losing our child, so please if you can't say a kind word then don't say anything at all. What really gets on my nerves is that you have to do it as an anonymous person because you don't have the guts to post it under your name where people can see who you are. I read a post of a dear BLM friend last night and she apologized because of other people's ignorance. I told her that she was better than I am because there is no way I would apologize. Its her page and she can write whatever she wants. So with this said, please try to respect other people and their feelings. I may read a blog that I don't agree with but you know what, that's my opinion and I keep it to myself because that wasn't my blog. If I want to write something, I will do it on here. Thank you and have a blessed day!!!! Kellie, I love how you are standing up for Maddie and trying to find reasons why SIDS happen. Love you girl!!!!
I'm leaving you with this: Opinions are like butt holes, we all have one!!!
Some dear friends of mine from church buried their precious baby girls today, Payslee Grace and Paylon Claire. She was 20 weeks pregnant with them and it was the sweetest service but yet so sad. I knew that God put me in their lives for a reason but didn't know this would be it. It has been really rough on her and the rest of the family. Brandon, the father, lost his dad last year in September. Bro. David found out he had cancer and 2 weeks later passed away. ( But not only do they have Jesus as a baby-sitter, they have their pawpaw) So this family has really been through it but yet they haven't lost their Praise!!! Then today during the funeral, Sierra's, the mommy, uncle passed out. They are thinking he had a heart attack. So please if you are a prayer warrior, please lift this family up because they really need it. One thing that really stuck out to me today was what one of the preacher's said. Bro Ray has also lost a child, so he knows from experience what they are going through. He said people may be trying to comfort them when they say: you are young, you can have another one. He said yes that's true but another baby will never replace them. Each child is its own being. They have their own place in your heart and can never be replaced. I love that!!! Please remember my friends and their family. I know that they will be Victorious because they have Jesus on their side!!!
This song is so sweet and really touched me!!! I know that God is the best babysitter for my Angel!!!
My heart is breaking for all my BLMs. A few of them are coming up on the 1st birthdays of their Angels and other are coming up on different milestones. My heart breaks for them because I know that it is so hard to go a day without their children muchless 2 months, 10 months, 1 year. I just want all of you to know that I am praying for you!!! I'm here to try and uplift you and pick you up when you fall. I saw this quote the other day and it made me think about all of you....
“To be fully human is…to know that it’s possible to face the unimaginable and somehow put one foot in front of the other.” - Oprah
That is so true, because they still have to live from day to day. They can't just shut down their lives because some have other children and if not they have a husband and family that they still have to be there for. I am praying for peace, strength, comfort, and understanding for all. Love you guys!!!
I would like to leave you with this......
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." Dr. Seuss
With that being said I know its hard to not be sad but to know that they lived and touched so many lives is worth it all. God will never leave you nor forsake you!!! He is the dearest friend that we can ever have :)
This past weekend was really busy for us. Maddox turned 1 Saturday. It was a bittersweet day. I was excited because of his party but sad because he isn't a baby anymore:( Where has time gone? If you blink your eyes, it seems like you have missed half of their life. His Birthday Party was great, other than the nasty weather that Tropical Storm Lee brought with it. We had so many friends and family that came to help us celebrate. Thank God, I always do their parties in the Church Gym because no matter what, rain or shine, you have a great party:) The rest of our weekend was spent sitting in the house watching it rain so not too good of a Labor Day weekend. Then yesterday we welcomed our newest addition to my side of the family. Easton Brent arrived late last night, weighing 9 lbs and 22 inches long. Yes, he is such a chunky baby :) So much to love!!!! So although we had nasty weather, we didn't let it take all the joy away. Thank God for all of his Blessings on my family. Hope all of you had a great weekend, yourselves:) Below are pictures of Maddox's party and Baby Easton:)
Sept. 3, 2010
Maddox 1 Day Old!!!
4 Months Old
6 Months Old
10 Months Old
Happy Birthday Maddox Reece!!!
Welcome Easton Brent!!!
Landon wasn't ready for the picture LOL!!!
Sorry about the pictures that are not facing the right way. I couldn't figure out how to turn them LOL!!!
I have so much that I need to update on here. With the Tropical Storm and all the stufff that has been going on I havn't had time to get on here and blog about what's been going on lately. And today I still don't have time because I am heading out the door to see our newest addition to our family be born. I just had to get on here and share this quote and I will blog about the weekend when I get home. “To be fully human is…to know that it’s possible to face the unimaginable and somehow put one foot in front of the other.” - Oprah Hope all of you have a blessed day and thinking about all my BLM friends :)
Today is Kellie's birthday and she is a dear friend to me. She and I got to know each other when she lost her sweet Angel, Maddie too soon. I know that if Kellie could have one wish to come true, that it would be for Maddie to come back but since that can't happen, She is trying her harrdest to keep Maddie's memory alive. She and James have worked so hard on raising money to for SIDS, and just sharing their love that they have for Maddie. My heart breaks for them and I too wish that Maddie could come back so that their hearts could be in one piece again. I know that she is in a better place and cannot come back so I am going to try to help Kellie and James in keeping Maddie's memory alive and sharing her love with others. Maddie was truly an Angel to me and Kellie has been my inspiration. Seeing the love that she has for Maddie has really touched me. I hope that one day that God blesses them with another little bundle of joy because they are two of the greatest parents around. They deserve to be Happy again. So Maddie, I am asking you to send your mommy and daddy a baby brother or sister. You will always be in our Heart sweet Maddie!!! Happy Birthday Kellie!!! You are the BEST!!!